This transition is already hard for me. I am dealing with personal stress (yes, I know, we ALL have it), and it's still VERY hard on me to leave Camilla each morning. Many mornings I will stay in bed while she's sleeping, snuggled up to her and be late to work because of it! Parenthood is an addiction beyond anything I can describe. Camilla LOVES to cuddle up to me now, with one arm over me, the other tucked under my arm, and I'll curl my arm around her....GAH, it's heaven on Earth!
I have decided that MY first task, delving into a more positive lifestyle, is to learn to control my emotions/temper. I've let it go, and it's VERY out of control! I have this disregard for ignorance and stupidity, as I feel both are a laziness that can be overcome. I tend to cuss other drivers and people that I see in public (under my breath, mind you!). *I believe my best friend said it right when she blogged about "An Inferior Race". *
So, I find myself taking a deep breath, while in my car, and saying to myself "Positivity" as I breathe in, and "All negative OUT" as I exhale. I'm sure it's hilarious, but it works! It keeps my temper at bay a little, and I don't feel like strangling the ass that just tried to tear my front end off, because the FIVE MILES of nothingness behind me wouldn't let him over! But, I will never argue that traffic here in Huntsville ROCKS compared to that of Nashville!
I have the support of loved ones, and a good lead, to begin yoga certification. I KNOW that this will help with the pent-up energy that is invading my body! Yoga is the MOST amazing thing ever created (outside of my lover and our daughter)! I believe my body is at a point where yoga will be my friend and lead me down a WONDERFUL path! I cannot wait to begin my teacher training!!!
There are other developments that I am hoping turn out in a positive way. I am scared beyond description, if I decide upon this journey. It offers as many "cons" as it does "pros", but the significance of those pros....sigh. So, I find myself STUCK in limbo. I need to meditate; I need to cleanse not just my soul, but the very materialistic nonsense that is cluttering my life!
Yes, that's right....another positive in my life; we're having a HUGE yard sale next weekend. They say it's a good thing to "DE-CLUTTER" your life in as many ways as possible! ;)
Happy Friday peeps! Happy Easter!