Lost Loves (are lost for a reason!)

I won't go into detail, but my sister got arrested last week. In a strange twist of fate, the state she was arrested in LOVES to display its inmates for all to see (humiliation is a good form of punishment for some).

For some odd reason, I had a dream about a guy I kinda dated WAY back in junior high.....haven't thought about him in AGES (to be honest, right out of high school and early into college), and only then because the woman who gave birth to me mentioned his name. I was actually just newly dating Wayne when she told me how she saw him in town; he asked about me and told Marty to not say, but he'd been in jail for a bit (drug charges or something).

I logged on to the site this morning to see if they'd posted my sister's next court date, and I decided to look up this guy.....WOW. He'd been arrested SEVERAL times over the years for drug charges! In awe, I'm looking at his mug shot, thinking to myself, WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED to this guy?!!!!? He had dreams; yes, he had a hard life back then and was exposed to drugs constantly, but SO WAS I???? He played football, and would write me letters through the week, talking about his dreams of getting out of small town A and becoming something bigger. We only saw each other on the weekends, as he lived in the next town over. He'd come to stay with his grandmother....to see me.

I saw him smoke a joint with my mother, and this disturbed me, seeing as he was only 16 at the time. I wrote him a very long letter and broke up with him. I knew, even back then, that was NOT part of my future. I knew he didn't do it all the time, but the fact that he knew I didn't like it, and did it with my mother of all people.....

I know that life guides you on a path; you can chose various routes to change things in your life. I could have stayed with Marty, chose to ride it out....I feared that my future down that path would only lead to teenage pregnancy as a rebellion against my mother....or worse, to my own demise in drug abuse. Kind of like what's happened to my sister! And I KNEW, even at 12 that I wanted MORE and BETTER for my life! Had I stayed there, and maybe even with THAT guy....I'd be a shell of a person, robbed of life and the vigor for it! I am pretty certain that I would have been pregnant before I got out of school, if I even finished!

People, look back at your past and realize....EVERYTHING happens for a reason; you can chose to become a victim of your past, let it rule your life....

OR, you can take those experiences (no matter HOW horrid or trouble-filled they seemed) and turn them into POWER; power to make your life WHAT YOU WANT IT TO BE!

I still have issues, yes, but it's more like a scar. I look at it once in a while and realize how bad it hurt, but I turned it around and made it work for me. I've allowed it to help me...teach me HOW NOT to be, and let it remind me daily of how my life could have turned out had I not fought for something better!

~Ciao

LOST and lots of catch-up (and NO, I don't mean the condiment!)

Let's get this out of the way FIRST! WHOA Lost.....I just cannot get enough this season; maybe it's because in 11 episodes, it's OVER (whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy  **sniffle**????)

Poor Ben Linus! Only once or twice since his arrival on Lost, have I actually felt sorry for him, but last night was another instance. I can relate to feeling like no one wants you, NO, NEEDS you....so my heart kind of reached out to him last night when he told Illana that he was going to find (faux)Locke because he was the only one who'd have him. I honestly thought she was still going to kill him as he followed her back to the beach though. He did (afterall) kill Jacob (thanks Miles!).

Anyone wanna comment on their fave highlight of last night's Lost?

Well, I guess we're officially launching Bonafide Custom Woodworks site this week! I am going to be working on getting some quality pictures up, starting up a Facebook page, and getting Bonafide's site going.....SO, if you are in the mood for a custom piece of furniture, give us a shout! I'll post details on here also, once everything is green!

Took Camilla for her 6 mth check-up last week; she weighs in at 16.9 lbs and is 27 1/2" long.....can you say TALL and LANKY (just like her mommy!) ;) Yes, it would seem that along with the baby weight, most of my curves are disappearing, leaving me with my high school skinny figure (which is a blessing AND a curse)!

Here she is playing outside...she's going to LOVE the outdoors!

G-maw came down this past weekend, for a visit and to give Wayne and me some time together. We SO enjoyed having her down; I'm sure it was hard for her to go home after all the comical acts by her granddaughter! (just like her DAH DAH)

~Ciao