I sit here, and I'm listening to Ryan Seacrest blabbering on the tv; glass of cran-mango juice and bubbly, and I'm reflecting over 2016.
It hasn't been easy! I'm not sure if it's getting older, or if it was just a shitty year in general. I've seen loss from so many that I love, and lost a few that I loved so dearly. I've seen anger and hatred, violence and ignorance. 2016 was NOT a good year.
The gratitude that I DO have, the blessings that were plenty for my family.... they just sit in the shadows of the fear, the ridiculous behavior I've had to ignore just to get through the day. I am not proud to admit that several nights I would drink just to fall asleep and not feel angst toward society.
I let the media and the idiots and the trolls get to me; being super sensitive (and I mean in an empathic way, not the "snowflakes" that you all call out and make fun of....), it just seems easier to put my head under a pillow. I had hoped when I pulled my head out, all of the idiots would be gone, and the world would be right again? BOY, was that just STUPID of me!